addendum (misattribution grumble)

[rinue]

I should probably at least be reassured that misattributions are normal. There has been a dramatic increase in even the last week of the percentage of my facebook comments that directly employ cult extraction techniques (hmm, it seems like you are worried about this, and I care about you. How do you reconcile [huge gap in conspiracy theory]?) and suicide hotline language.

Comments

[sovay]

At the moment, it feels utilitarian to me, like it's not my responsibility (in other words, I don't need to take it on as stress or try to predict how it will turn out) but I have this extra capacity in the present moment which may be of benefit.

I misread your original statement, in that I thought it referred to comments on your Facebook rather than comments you were leaving for other people, which I would also have said something about, but probably "stressful" rather than "distressing." I am glad it is something you can do without adding further load to yourself.

[rinue]

That's a certainly a fair interpretation of what I wrote, and it is good that it's not what's happening - that would be really scary.

Either way, I'm not saying "possibly" like "how could you think that" - I know from experience that I do the reverse of the "feelings stage and then solutions oriented." In a crisis I go straight into problem solving and then have a breakdown later when I know everyone is safe. So I'm quite calm and productive and happy right now, in a way that doesn't make a lot of sense. I have some external clues that I'm on borrowed time with that, and that my emotional response or lack of emotional response is not altogether trustworthy.