rinue | Grrrrr, dizzy.

So I've finally recovered from [various medical problems that knocked Romie flat on her back for over a week, during which there was a hospital run and the most powerful antibiotics in the world] enough to start worrying about employment again - I figure since I've reached the point where I can wear actual clothes and move about the house, (slowly,) I'm well enough to fill out more applications, (although I do have to rest frequently).

My current scheme, (my favorite one,) is to try for a year-long Class-A internship with Theatre Three, which I have a fond relationship with both because it's in the round and because several friends of mine (including my husband) work there. Plus the management rocks. As far as the application goes, I have to send in my resume, which I've finally beaten into some kind of shape, and also a cover letter expressing my interest.

I cannot emphasize the importance of this cover letter, especially given that most of the productions I've run have been very fly-by-night and experimental, that a lot of my work has been uncredited, and that my degree is not in theatre or even media. That said, I actually have a lot of experience and am disgustingly competent.

It's not that I don't feel I can write this cover letter - I can. I'm an incredible writer with a wealth of personal experience in this area. The problem is one of how honest I should be, because the most pressing answer to "why do you want this job?" is: because in total my husband and I have less than $400 in our bank accounts, (which we will need to lay down Friday as the rent on our apartment,) I am worried about our continuing ability to not starve.

Come to think of it, that might go over well, considering that the management likes us and sort of treats Patrick like a son or nephew.

It's not really a truthful answer, though, because I could get more money more immediately as a waitress or typist. The real answer is a blend between a desire for a job with some hope of advancement, achievement, intangable rewards, and a great love of the theatre, whose hardest work I find more entertaining than the easiest work in any other job. I like being around theater people, and I like being around the mechanics of a stage. Theatre work is the only kind I've ever really wanted. (Don't correct me here - I never really wanted to be a writer, I just kind of was/am one and figure I should run with it.)

But all that sounds very artificial and saccarine and ass kissing.

Grrrr, dizzy. Bad entry. Pity me, am sick. Going to do crossword now.