The Return of Bedtime Bear
Mar. 26th, 2025 10:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rinueFeeling beleaguered because most of the tasks I've been dealing with are like level grind fetch quest chains, where doing any given thing just unlocks the next stage of the thing I have to do:
request medical record; wait for medical record to come in the mail; send medical record to someone else
request an actor fill out a questionnaire; submit answers to the theatre company for approval; hear back the next day that they're approved; send actor link from the theatre company so they can re-upload the same documents
ask over and over for information from various writers and editors so I can make their form letters and galleys and send them money and make a report about the money I have sent
I know all of this is fairly normal for management and admin work; it's sheep herding essentially. But it feels very similar to getting nothing done while also being incredibly vital. I don't feel I really should be in these information chains, but other people are fairly determined that the information does need to flow through me, and the systems break down when it doesn't.
It's like I'm constantly increasing how full completion bars are, but the tasks don't actually clear until I reach 100% so my to do list stays exactly the same. Very hard to feel I am making any progress, although I am. Bogged down in the producer side of being in the arts (and the household), basically.
On the other hand, my Salsa teacher has asked me to help with a dance demo next week, which should be fun. I think it may be the first time I've performed dance as an adult; the last time would be when I was maybe four, when I did a tap dance number about the Care Bears.
request medical record; wait for medical record to come in the mail; send medical record to someone else
request an actor fill out a questionnaire; submit answers to the theatre company for approval; hear back the next day that they're approved; send actor link from the theatre company so they can re-upload the same documents
ask over and over for information from various writers and editors so I can make their form letters and galleys and send them money and make a report about the money I have sent
I know all of this is fairly normal for management and admin work; it's sheep herding essentially. But it feels very similar to getting nothing done while also being incredibly vital. I don't feel I really should be in these information chains, but other people are fairly determined that the information does need to flow through me, and the systems break down when it doesn't.
It's like I'm constantly increasing how full completion bars are, but the tasks don't actually clear until I reach 100% so my to do list stays exactly the same. Very hard to feel I am making any progress, although I am. Bogged down in the producer side of being in the arts (and the household), basically.
On the other hand, my Salsa teacher has asked me to help with a dance demo next week, which should be fun. I think it may be the first time I've performed dance as an adult; the last time would be when I was maybe four, when I did a tap dance number about the Care Bears.
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Date: 2025-03-27 11:44 am (UTC)