They didn't know it, because you never show it

[rinue]

Feeling less stressed now that there's a shooting schedule and I can see with my eyes what the parameters are. I can do things that are very difficult as long as I have reassurance they are theoretically possible.

On the other hand, I've just been asked to do something impossible at work, but I flat out refused to even pretend I was going to try. On another week, I might say "well, they're paying me to waste this time," but this week . . . no.

Long-term stressors that are falling away: Ciro is done with school, and we're set to move in October. My parents are very much looking forward to seeing us, and I am looking forward to once again living with adults I trust.

Letter from Val arrived yesterday. She spends twice as much on postage as I do, because she likes to write one-sided on thick paper with expressive handwriting. I write tiny and would do it on tissue paper if I thought it would be legible.

Ciro and I have started doing stretches before bed, and I do seem better rested, but this could be coincidence. I've also been wearing my mouthguard to bed to still my gnashing of teeth.

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[valancy_jane]

Moving where where where?
(curious about impossibility, but curiousity doesn't have to be satisfied.)

[rinue]

Impossibility: host ID-ing for Tennis Channel. No. I do it with SFG, because they're good about saying who they're throwing it to, I can see a picture, and they each talk for a long time. I'm not doing it for banter by people offscreen that interrupt each other constantly. I don't even know how many of them there are, let alone who is who. And unlike SFG, I don't have an agenda, or even a list of who it might be. Maybe I'm stupid and everybody else is getting this just fine, but either way I need to be off this channel if that's going to be a requirement.

Where is Boston; we can stay with my folks for a year or two and pay down student loans and be in a house with a piano, and there are many more paying film/theater/art jobs for Ciro up there. It's not a permanent decision; in a year or two we're still aiming for a move to Italy, although obviously anything and everything can and will move around if one of us suddenly becomes very famous or something. (That's a weird thing to have to plan around as a possibility, but there it is.)