Chemistry in Action

[rinue]

I respond well - even ideally - to adrenaline, the chemical at the center of any stress response. I get calm, cocky, and quick, able to fight ninjas, defuse bombs, run from zombies, and catch the girl before she marries the wrong guy. I don't freeze up, panic, get the shakes, get aggressive, or any other negative side effects. I rock at being stressed out.

Allergies, on the other hand, fuck me up. I don't get a runny nose; I get paranoid, jumpy, and lightheaded. Perversely, antihistamines like Benadryl have precisely the same effect.

Lately, stress and cedar have joined forces to make me confident, witty, highly suspicious, and in constant danger of fainting. My inner critic has gone crazy with a running analysis of everything I say or do, which isn't exactly bad, but which makes first drafts difficult. Sex, as you can imagine is Right Out. I even wake myself up throughout the night, irritated by plot holes in my dreams and certain that I could be Doing Better.

It's pretty humorous, yet I suspect everyone will be relieved when hay fever season ends or I get a response to my grad school application - whichever comes first.

Comments

[narcolepticcat.livejournal.com]

i keep dreaming about gay supervillain duos who stop fighting me to mug down with each other just long enough for me to escape, or plea to their inner horndog/gay man that since they get to mug down i should get to much down with the other half of my superhero duo, whether i want to or not, but especially if i do want to.

[valancy.livejournal.com]

*hugs* *hopes* *hugs*

[achates.livejournal.com]

On the other hand, you do get that sexy voice thing from time to time right? I mean, if you've got to put up with those godawful silver linings, lets at least package them up with a sexy voice.

And maybe some buttersotch.

mmmmmm (unfortunately, I cannot remember if you actually like butterscotch or not)

[rinue.livejournal.com]

I enjoy a small amount of butterscotch by itself, but I don't tend to like it mixed with other things or in large amount. Too sweet. I feel basically the same way about toffee. When it comes down to it, I don't like my sweet foods to be particularly sweet.

[treehavn.livejournal.com]

I keep having terribly postmodern dreams where I reference things that have been discussed on LJ. It's a. quite pathetic, and b. really fucking annoying. And grad school? Pray, do tell!