Ahh, just Cargo Theatre stuff. I don't like to talk about it because, well, a lot of what I have to do to get things up and running is to be incredibly confident so as to convince other people to give me things on faith. If I start getting jitters about the central plan for the company, I sort of have to keep them to myself. It's a weird place where I can't find a balance between trusting my own intuition and setting off self-fulfilling prophecies. I'm afraid I also can't tell you my good ideas, which are effectively the company's only assets at the moment. It's a little high-pressure.
Thanks for your interest, though. The most helpful thing is sometimes just knowing that people *want* to help. And, yes, I have to fight against my own perfectionism - for example, I only buy clothes that already have holes in them, because otherwise I'd be terrified of messing them up. It's ridiculous. I have to consciously put flaws into things; otherwise, I'd never finish them.
Anyway, I imagine I'll be writing more about this issue; at the very least, it helps me to blow off steam (and hopefully have a sense of humor about it).
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Date: 2004-01-10 11:44 pm (UTC)Thanks for your interest, though. The most helpful thing is sometimes just knowing that people *want* to help. And, yes, I have to fight against my own perfectionism - for example, I only buy clothes that already have holes in them, because otherwise I'd be terrified of messing them up. It's ridiculous. I have to consciously put flaws into things; otherwise, I'd never finish them.
Anyway, I imagine I'll be writing more about this issue; at the very least, it helps me to blow off steam (and hopefully have a sense of humor about it).
thanks,
Romie