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rinue ([personal profile] rinue) wrote 2019-02-07 10:54 pm (UTC)

I did concussion tests/checklists at home essentially as due dilligence (so I'd know the signs) and I scored 7 out of 400 on the first day and am now down to 2 out of 400. At present, I guarantee a doctor would run me through that exact same checklist and then say "keep an eye on it, get plenty of sleep, don't reinjure your head, and avoid alcohol and anti-coagulant medications, and come back if it gets worse instead of better." For which I would pay at least $400.

What I'm dealing with today is a sinus headache (when I say it's a "head" ache it's actually pressure in my nose). It's more like... I feel like I should have been injured? And I feel this way even though I absolutely understand the physics and car technology which prevented me from being injured, which was designed to prevent me from being injured by absorbing the energy and crumpling and buffering and cracking so none of it gets to me. Literally I experienced less force than I would on a roller coaster. The precautions I'm taking are basically identical to stubbing my toe and then refusing to eat sugar in case it's gout, because wouldn't gout be awful?

Of course I've alerted the people around me to step in if they see odd behavior (some of whom work at the hospital). But there is none.

Basically, it's like when Indiana Jones goes over the edge of a cliff in a tank but then is fine and his hat blows over to him, and everybody's like "yep, you're good, let's go." And on the one hand, yeah, let's go get the holy grail now. But also: come on. It's annoying that everybody's fussing over the very damaged car instead of me (because we can't use the car anymore and will need a new one, whereas I'm fine). I'm annoyed even knowing I'd also be annoyed if people fussed over me, because I'm fine and think everybody should trust that I'm fine when I say I'm fine.

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