2010-05-29

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2010-05-29 06:33 pm

Oh Who Knows

Yesterday was Ciro's birthday, so we sold some of our books and replaced them with other books of the same value, had coffee and tirimasu, watched a borrowed copy of Drag Me To Hell with Chad and Merlin, ate barbecue and turnip greens, and then went to a diner for pie and more coffee. With Ciro's trilby and my tweed trench coat (air conditioning in Texas being the menace it is), the whole thing felt 1930's, or at least Edward Hopper. In the same way I have trouble relaxing these days, I find it difficult to escape double consciousness -- to notice how wealthy my behavior seems viewed from one perspective and how impoverished from another, or to see the way a man who backs into me assumes I walked into him based on the fact that I'm wearing slides and pigtails. (There is a general assumption that curvy women are also off balance and frivolous; this goes away if I de-sexualize myself enough, but for goodness sake it was Ciro's birthday.)

I managed to get some cleaning done in the kitchen, as well as to replace our crumbling plastic drawer pulls with something sleeker. I've seeded some wildflowers along the windowsill; time will tell whether seedlings come up or whether this seed packet (which arrived in the mail several years ago, unexplained) was a dud.

Schneider has been working on a production with a company that's looking to fill next year's slate of films and he recommended they talk to me. So I may have a meeting with some producers and some acquisitions people later this week. Since I don't know them and they don't know me, I don't know how big a deal this will be; it's plausible that I could wind up walking away with exactly the situation I have now, or that I'll suddenly be on the payroll of a minor studio, which would sort of be like skipping four spaces ahead on the gameboard. (Good lord it would be a relief not to have to manage my own payroll and contracts.) I'm not really sure whether they're trying to recruit me or whether I'm trying to sell to them, and for better or for worse, I can't obsess over it with anyone right now because I'm the person I know with the most experience at this. Possibly it will go very well and possibily it will be very disruptive, and I suspect the two are linked. At least I have the luxury of being all right if nothing comes of it.