The notion of personal solidarity keeps recurring in my quest for self-definition, mostly because I get the feeling I won't progress if I don't pick a path (maintaining several fronts simultaneously is exhausting, at best, and carries the possibility that it is ultimately futile). I get a small chill whenever my internal Buddy Ackerman pops up with his, "The only thing you have to ask yourself is, 'What do you really want?'", because of the threat that I might have to excise, when I cannot honestly say that "really" inherently culls the list of any dead weight.
You may have noticed that I don't enjoy the "dynamic-ing" game as much as Chad does, and that I chafe against his tendency to assign labels to people. As innocently and flatteringly as he does it, it leaves me feeling that I am a "character" rather than a person, smaller than I might be left to my own devices. "Hacker advocate/hacktivist", "I.T. Guy", "A/V Tech", "Composer", "Electronica Artist", "Screenwriter", "Film-maker", "Poet", "Fiction Writer", "Photographer", "Digital Artist", "Italian", "Man", "Main Character". . . all these people (as well as those left unmentioned) want different things, and I want all of them.
And perhaps a bit more.
As someone who understands both military mindsets and successful business models, you know the value of centralized authority. Nothing gets done in a pinch if the final say goes to too many people. Consequently, rather than paring down my list, I've made them employees. At my disposal.
So, if ever you wonder who I'm talking to when I address Romie, I want to speak to the woman in charge.
Tzarcasm (http://tzarcasm.diaryland.com)
P.S. This is a terribly lengthy comment, for which I truly apologize. Maybe I was making up for not having made any in a while.
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The notion of personal solidarity keeps recurring in my quest for self-definition, mostly because I get the feeling I won't progress if I don't pick a path (maintaining several fronts simultaneously is exhausting, at best, and carries the possibility that it is ultimately futile). I get a small chill whenever my internal Buddy Ackerman pops up with his, "The only thing you have to ask yourself is, 'What do you really want?'", because of the threat that I might have to excise, when I cannot honestly say that "really" inherently culls the list of any dead weight.
You may have noticed that I don't enjoy the "dynamic-ing" game as much as Chad does, and that I chafe against his tendency to assign labels to people. As innocently and flatteringly as he does it, it leaves me feeling that I am a "character" rather than a person, smaller than I might be left to my own devices. "Hacker advocate/hacktivist", "I.T. Guy", "A/V Tech", "Composer", "Electronica Artist", "Screenwriter", "Film-maker", "Poet", "Fiction Writer", "Photographer", "Digital Artist", "Italian", "Man", "Main Character". . . all these people (as well as those left unmentioned) want different things, and I want all of them.
And perhaps a bit more.
As someone who understands both military mindsets and successful business models, you know the value of centralized authority. Nothing gets done in a pinch if the final say goes to too many people. Consequently, rather than paring down my list, I've made them employees. At my disposal.
So, if ever you wonder who I'm talking to when I address Romie, I want to speak to the woman in charge.
Tzarcasm (http://tzarcasm.diaryland.com)
P.S. This is a terribly lengthy comment, for which I truly apologize. Maybe I was making up for not having made any in a while.
P.P.S. That post, by the way, is excellent.